So here's a thing that I didn't think I would be writing about again so soon.
Relationships, or rather an intimate relationship.Defined by good old Wiki as
An intimate relationship is a particularly close interpersonal relationship that involves physical or emotional intimacy. Physical intimacy is characterized by romantic or passionate sex and attachment, or sexual activity.
Intimate relationships play a central role in the overall human experience. Humans have a general desire to belong and to love which is usually satisfied within an intimate relationship. Intimate relationships involve the physical and sexual attraction by one person to another, liking and loving, romantic feelings and sexual relationships, as well as the seeking of a mate and emotional and personal support of each other.
Intimate relationships provide a social network for people that provide strong emotional attachments, and fulfill our universal need of belonging and the need to be cared for.
Yes readers, I am in a relationship. Its official. We've been seeing each other a little over 2 months and its good. Its fun. Its lovely. Its satisfying. Its actually looking to be a bit serious.
Not something I have a lot of in other human beings, having been let down so badly in the past.
apparently you need that to build a good relationship. That's a bit tricky then. He says all these wonderful things to me. Looks me in the eyes and tells me I am the one for him, the only one, no one has ever made him feel like this before.
And in my head I think; who else have you said that to. Am I just another woman to be fed the same line?
I ask him, no he says. Trust me he says
I can't. I can't trust. giving my trust to someone is too much, too dangerous.
He says he understands, will be patient, understands I have barriers up for self preservation.
He could be the one for me too. But I worry perhaps I am not ready? the right person, but at the very wrong time?
Trust, such a small simply word that carries so much weight and importance in life.
I barely trust myself to not wreck this relationship, I am so good at that - pushing them away to protect myself, and pushing too hard.
How can I trust him not to take my heart and walk away with it?